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Happy Place

no blogging this week
2 huge events kept me away from my computer all week
and kept me away from my family
that sucked

but now i'm home and hibernating all weekend

i love this photo

to walk around the corner and see his little head
and his little mullet
and watch him explore and experiment with his toys
my heart just swelled

and i was so glad to be in my happy place

Daylight Savings time used to be awesome until i had a kid

and he started waking up at 5am instead of 6am

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

happy all saints day

when your kid doesn't even walk, there's no point taking him out to score some candy. but we love costumes...(remember our christmas card). so we weren't going to pass up a chance to entertain ourselves with little son's appearance.

he spent the morning as a tiger...

[roar]

until he wet the pants and then we dressed him up as his daddy.

[the pants were cut off and used as a paint wipe rag, just like daddy's]

average birthday

[painted by my husband during a worship set with jason upton...it's my new fav]

it was husband's birthday yesterday.
for the first few years i knew him, we never celebrated his birthday...we always celebrated october 30th as 'Average Birthday' with his buddy/roommate mark who's birthday is tomorrow. so in honor, an average birthday post.

and i know i've mentioned how much i love and appreciate my husband and my best friend. cause i do. and i couldn't survive this life without him. here are a few photos of our fun family day with his favorites...forts, food and fun.

[daddy and little son in the fort]

[everything and everyone is used to balance and stand]

[everyone in the fort. judes eyes make me laugh in this photo]

[mmmm our favorite kind of dinner. snacks. ps. husband made those potatoe chips from our potatoes...top chef material]

not his halloween costume

why is it so funny to put toys on my son's head and think they're costumes
what's up music man...

i scream, judes scream, we all scream

it's a new season
outside our house and inside our house...
suddenly little son is a screamer
and i'm not talking about the cute pterodactyl noises
i'm talking, red faced, eyes closed, body shake screams

who is this kid?
what did you do with little son?
and why are you screaming? cause i won't let you rip off the window blinds? cause you can't put your hand in the fireplace? cause i won't let you juggle knives?
now i officially have to learn to parent

i felt like i did in the first few months when i thought every little thing would affect my child. will he have discipline problems? will he ever listen to me? how do i not react when it's piercing my ears?! will we be able to go out and eat in a restaurant ever again?!

for 'real parents' (aka my parents or friends who already have toddlers) this is not new. for me, it was cause for panic. it's embarrassing. and yet, i know i am just getting a taste of what every parent deals with. Parenting can be a public thing. So am i going to care more what people think of me and my kid, or am i going to care more about what is best for my kid and how i raise him. you know?

the only problem is, i don't know how to raise him...i'm learning. and for someone who likes to get it right the first time, i already see that parenting doesn't always have one right answer.